HGTV junkie?

I'm one of those that need background noise to keep me going, so I usually have the TV on to handle this. Lately I've been leaving it on HGTV and I think I now know all the Property Brothers episodes. May I say- HOTT! Ok, so in reality I wish someone could come help me fix up my old century home though there are never any of those shows filmed here in Ohio and they certainly won't come to help me. I don't have some bleeding heart story of tragedy or triumph. I'm just a stay at home mom trying to survive and make the best for my family that I love.

The problem with watching all this HGTV is it gets you motivated to "fix up" your home and such, which would be fantastic and I have some great ideas thanks to these shows. What I don't have is money or help to do any of these. Right now with it being September I'm in Holiday mode, saving form my budgeted Christmas spending. I know this might seem so far off but I have to do this as we don't usually have extra money for much of anything. When we do is when something bad happens that we have no choice but to shell out a ton of money that takes away from feeding my family. Forget any other needs. This is why we have not been able to fix the mold and damage from the roof leak we had about 2 years ago. We had to replace the whole roof costing us substantial amount of money and the husband had to forfeit his 2 weeks of vacation to get the advance pay to get the work done. Mind you, this was on a low pay budget as a friend did the work (he has his own roofing company). The insurance company demanded it done immediately as we had to claim it on the insurance. At this time, our house payment was so behind we were in danger of loosing the home as well, so some of that money had to be used to pay the mortgage AND put a temporary fix inside. My ceiling is still damaged in my kitchen, above this on the second floor the ceiling still has black mold showing through the textured ceiling paint; but now we have a new roof and vapor barrier around this area. This is only one problem of a list that keeps growing every year! We have a constant stomping of mice in the ceiling and they like to pop into my attic- damaging things stored there. We have Wolf Spiders, house spiders, cellar spiders, earwigs, silverfish, lady bugs, ants, possibly carpenter ants, beetles and who knows what else. I read these so called solution sites and of course the state to seal up the foundation but in all reality my home was built on a foundation of stone. Even a failed attempt of sealing the stone and brick down there is futile as it was done before and still leaks. There is an old coal shoot that has been locked up and "sealed" and more. It's an old farm house.... Come'on!

I also say I need help as my husband not only works so dang much but he has no interest in working on the home; Only a place to lay his head I think and his garages- which he keeps in fair condition (can't store anything in the pole barn any longer as the mice have destroyed a lot in there as well).

I find myself frustrated now because nothing is getting fixed, repaired or just done around the house that I can not do myself.

Damn you HGTV! Grrrr.......